Sunday, January 29, 2012

Entry 007: A Light In A Time of Trials

I want to start this post by updating you on some recent events. I grew up in the ghetto. I don't mean a "white boy's" b-rated version of a bad neighborhood, I really mean the hood. I had gang members living on my street --HUD Housing, what many refer to as 'the projects'-- I had neighbors committing hate crimes and suicide, maintenance workers and even neighbors breaking-and-entering, and babies of crack-mothers stuffed in storm drains. Most people in my neighborhood didn't go down to the mailboxes every day without carrying something as a weapon--a bat, knife, pepper spray, and in some cases even a gun. As a child I saw many horrible things and experienced first-hand many terrible things. In the 90s, my home life wasn't all that great either. The violence outside was only reflected by the violence inside. After nearly a decade of it, we finally moved on with our lives trying to escape at the very least the inner violence.

We traveled all over the State from one bad area of a city to another. We've lived in abuse shelters and homeless shelters while trying to get back up on our feet. The life of my family was one of struggle, of meeting brick wall after brick wall, of opposition always trying to knock us down. Yet we have come out stronger for it.

About two years ago, right around Yule (Christmas time), I was spending a weekend at my Covenstead when I received a phone call: my mother was in the hospital. She went in complaining of stomach pains only to have test results come back showing that due to blood clots, half of one of her kidneys was deteriorated and the other one was starting to deteriorate. They ran a few more scans to find the cause of the blood clots, and since heart problems don't exactly have a history with my family, they speculated only one possibility: Cancer. So since she was a smoker the first place they checked were her lungs. They found a mass on her left lung and decided to do a biopsy to test it. During this biopsy, her lungs collapsed. My mother is a small woman, but she is strong, she pulled through. They didn't get enough of the mass to run a conclusive test, so they decided to do a second biopsy, during which her lungs collapsed yet a second time. Test results came back positive for lung cancer.

Needless to say we were all very scared. They weren't sure if it had reached her lymph nodes yet or not, and I wasn't allowed to see her for a while. I remember my uncle picking me up from my evening classes one night and telling me he'd gotten a call from his wife who had just been there to visit my mother--
-"I don't know any other way to tell you this, Jonathon, but...they don't know if your mother will survive past this Sunday." I took the news in silently, it was obvious my uncle didn't have any further information to share with me, so I waited as patiently as I could until I was able to see her.

My first visitation to see her shook me to my core. She suffered through a lot, and I had been there with her through most of it---almost all of the abuse and constant running and worrying about keeping a job and financial struggles...and yet she tried to keep a strong face on for my little sister and I. She was a strong woman who was taking control back over her own life and always tried her hardest to make sure her children were taken care of first before she ever took care of herself. She fought long and hard to be able to keep us fed and a roof over our heads, worked herself to the bone. So when I saw her laying there in the hospital bed, looking so small, so frail...coughing up blood every once in a while (from her lungs collapsing) and taking breathing treatments...I was very scared. But I hid it well--I sat with my mother, I prayed with her, I talked to her and that was when I came out to her about my Faith in its entirety. I explained to her about my views on a Masculine and Feminine aspect of Deity and she took it rather well. She didn't turn me away when I offered to lend her some healing energies, some light and love.

She overheard the doctors one night say that the cancer had not reached her lymph nodes so she had a fighting chance--she gained the strength to fight, and she won. She beat back the cancer. Like most of my family, she was strong, she was a survivor.

Last May, my grandmother--my mother's mother--passed away rather unexpectedly. She was struggling and on her way to the hospital when we got the call, but before we could even hit the road, we got the second call letting us know that she had passed on her way to the hospital...but she had been sedated and asleep. (They had to wait until they could sedate her gently because she refused to go to a hospital...like I said, my family is full of strong fighters...but my grandmother had been fighting poor health most of her life, and she just got too tired and decided to go home.) This took a heavy toll on my mother. My family is not a close-knit family. There are a lot of emotional walls built up around most of them and forgiveness is not one of their finer qualities. It's mostly unheard of in my family. Yet despite this, my mother had never imagined her life without her own mother, and this blew threw her core like the cold chill of Midwinter.

A few days ago, my High Priestess heard from her own mother that her step-father, just like her biological father before him, was diagnosed with esophageal cancer. He is in too much pain to eat or drink much of anything other than broth, and even then they have to provide him with strong painkillers in order for him to tolerate just broth. This shook my High Priestess to her very foundation, having to go through this a second time, not knowing if her dad will be coming back home. Prognosis looks bleak, but there's always hope. This is effecting her greatly, and she's barely able to function as High Priestess or small-business owner, or wife, or mother. She's a strong woman, I know she'll pull through, but I am praying that she pulls through with her support system intact.

This past Thursday I received a call from my aunt Judith who informed me that a woman I met back during my childhood, one of my aunt's friends, awoke that morning to find her daughter had passed away in her sleep due to a blood clot from her lifelong brain tumor which she's had since she was a young child...her 18th birthday would have been this March. I ask that you all keep Kathy Swan and her daughter, Desiree' in your prayers as Desiree' makes her transition between this world and the next. Desiree' was a talented artist and a great light and inspiration to the staff at Red Top Mountain State Park. The Goddess calls home the best of us.

A dear friend on mine has been in the hospital since November, and during her hospital stay where she was immobilized, her twin brother passed away as well. She's only just beginning to enter the stages of recovery where she can go to rehab and begin walking on her own again, and I ask you all to keep her in your prayers as well.

I learned also that the original actor for Spartacus (Blood and Sand ; Gods of the Arena) also passed away over the winter due to his fight with cancer.

Death is greedy, all you Necromancers out there, remember that before you decide to use your Craft to help or hinder another.

I'm not sure if I ever told any of you this, but I used to teach Sunday School. I was Pagan then, as well, but I still felt the warm embrace of the God and Goddess in some churches as well. Now I've been to as many as seventy-five different churches all over North Georgia--Southern Baptist, Pentecostal, Lutharin, Catholic, and some non-denominational; in my time with these churches I have met many interesting circumstances filled with very interesting people. What I learned in some of these churches is that not all Christians are negative or judgmental. I have seen Christians and Pagans alike come under one roof and wash the feet of one another in mutual service and humility, humbling themselves before the presence of their respective Deity. Regardless of what name we place on our Faith, beliefs, practices, or Saints or Gods(esses), we are all in service to Spirit--to the All. Any prayer or act done in good faith to help or heal another should always be welcomed.

Over the last two years, even in the pursuit of building my own Ministry (I'm an ordained Interfaith Minister, even though I am Pagan) I have forgotten about those lessons and have gotten lost in the folds of blame and anger and pain and sorrows. Tonight I saw a movie on television that reminded me of those lessons I learned not that many years ago. The movie is called, "The Second Chance." If you get the chance to do so, please watch it. It is a prime example of what true Christianity is all about. What churches are really all about (or are supposed to be about.)

I am proud to be a Minister, and in times like these, the trials we face, it helps to restore the light that helps to guide us along our paths--to see people reaching out to one another in service to Spirit, in service to one another. It reminds me of how much good a single individual can do, working with one person at a time, let alone a whole group of people.

Never forget the Power of One. All it takes is one person to start something wonderful.

I'd like to end this post with a quote I read recently on Facebook:

"You don't have to be great to start something, but you do have to start something to become great." --Author Unknown.

Brightest Blessings to all going through their own trials and tribulations this year, and remember...the flame always burns bright if you just believe. There is always light to be found in every situation, you just have to be open to seeing it...open to receiving its warmth.

Good night, everyone.

-Rev. Jonathon S. Lowe; HP
House of Sacred Mother & Child
Midnight Star School of Witchcraft
Atlanta Pagan Roundtable

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Entry 006 Elaborating the Community Grimoire

When I was on another forum, a wonderful idea was brought to the table: create a traveling grimoire (similar to the pants from Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants). Everyone who had the time to dedicate to actually doing it would contribute to this grimoire their own personal findings, spells, rituals, potions, recipes, charms, chants, workshops, poems, etc...with the idea of having a book full of lessons from myriad types of people from various paths and traditions from all over the world, all adding their own personal energies into it. Then once it was large enough, we would have it published with all credit given where it is due.

The unfortunate problem was that not a lot of people were interested. Most of the members of this group were young and had various reasons as to why they couldn't participate. I thought this idea was far too wonderful to just let it drop, with its vast array of possibilities and uses. So I brought this up to Lady Charissa, High Priestess and Founder of North Georgia Solitaries Church and NGS School of Witchcraft. She is one of the Pagan Community Leaders who I have been working with over various projects for the last three years and is a very wonderful woman who has given my coven and I so much love and support over the years.

The idea was tweaked so that people who are interested would contribute probably via email, and once enough contributions from our community came together, we would get it published. This gets writers out there into the world, brings the community closer together, and could also possibly generate a revenue for the Pagan Assistance Fund (helping Pagan families in crisis), the Savannah Pagan Pride Day Trip, and any other future community events.

The new idea was to do this in a forum base so people can constantly add to it online--it can be published online and available for people to print as they need directly from their own computer at home.

This is so far the pitch for it...we're still editing and trying to get it right before we send it out to start drumming up interest, but here's the rough draft:

The House of Sacred Mother and Child and North Georgia Solitaries have come together to create a Community Grimoire!

This grimoire will be full of all kinds of information, experiences, and creative materials from all around the Pagan Community. We believe that community is sacred, so who better to put together a sacred text than a community without walls. There is no geographic limitation, we would love to have cultural materials from all over the world--after all, the Pagan Community isn't just local, but extends to our brothers and sisters worldwide. We ask for submissions of original materials only. Authors of original materials will receive full credit and recognition for their submissions. If you have any material that belongs to another author you believe should be in the Community Grimiore, please contact them and have them submit the material so they can receive full credit for it.

The goal of the Community Grimoire is to provide a resource filled with traditions and experiences from several cultures from all over the world and from right here at home. It is a medium of learning and creative inspiration that can be passed on from person to person and continually added to year after year. The most important thing is to have fun with this project and to enjoy the experience of coming together to share your knowledge and wisdom that will be passed down through the ages.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Entry 005 Come On 2012!

Much has gone on since my last entry. I have been sick off and on with random semi-major illnesses, all of which I have recovered from. Meanwhile, I have been doing a lot more spiritual research to try to rediscover the balance in my spiritual health.

I've been doing a lot of studies on Neo and Tribal Shamanism and out of all of my studies I have come to find that I have many of the beliefs and practices of many traditions of Shamanism. Later I came to realize that severe sicknesses are considered to be a calling to Shamanism, and that if you deny or ignore the call, you continue to get sick--sometimes it stays the same and you just keep getting sick over and over with odd and random ailments of various seriousness...and sometimes the ailments get progressively worse. Mine have been very random indeed. Upon looking back I realized that I have had one single Epileptic Seizure the doctors couldn't explain, I have had prophetic dreams and visions both while sleeping and wide awake (and serious verifiable cases of dejavu.) Then I began to go into the doctor's office with random ailments such as rashes that can't be explained, in one case I was told I had a rare and benign disease that went away just as quickly as it had come--it left my skin red and splotchy for about a week, and then it was gone. I had frequent dizzy spells where I not only got dizzy, but I lost my eye sight, sense of smell, sense of touch, and sense of hearing each time it happened. Recently, I randomly developed Cellulitus in a lymph node in my leg which lasted for a month while I was on pain killers and antibiotics for it. (Note: cellulitus is usually caused by a scratch typically from an animal in your deep tissue which causes an infection....I never had a scratch there from animal or otherwise, deep or shallow.) Now recently due to the antibiotics and some modicum of emotional stress over the winter holidays, I developed a case of Candida (also known as Thrush.) I was told it could take up to a year to get rid of Thrush, and yet here I am having beaten it in nearly three and a half weeks.

I am always getting sick with things that are serious, could get serious, or should all take a long while to get rid of--and I always bounce right back from it in record time.

So, I decided to accept my calling and study more on it. Since then my ailments have been decreasing, my energy flow has been realigning, and I feel....more. That's the best way I can describe it. Just more.

I was also recently named High Priest of the House of Sacred Mother & Child, and we're getting ready to head some major projects such as an artist Co-op Store, a Community Grimoire, and several other smaller projects. We have also begun teaching, having opened the Midnight Star School of Witchcraft.

I survived the Swine Flu, Chicken Pox Epidemic, Y2K Bug, and 9/11....so come, 2012 , I welcome you with gusto and I look forward to the challenges and triumphs to come.

Friday, December 17, 2010

Entry 004 Yule Traditions

It's that time of year again as the Wheel turns once more. We welcome the rebirth of the Sun God as we gather warm around our fires, snuggled up in blankets to stave off the chill of winter. The Earth is asleep and the Yule Logs are being lit. Trees are being decorated and prayers for snow are being sent on silent wings up into the starry night.

Everyone has a certain tradition that they --or their family-- does to celebrate the Yuletide season every year.

Last year, my Coven accidentally ended up purchasing a pink tree (since we couldn't afford a real one at the time). We thought it was white, but it ended up being baby pink. We did a Yule Tree Blessing while we decorated it, of course it had myriad colors of candy canes, what kind of tree would it be without them?! We also baked small dough men to decorate the tree with, each one blessed. One for each member of the Coven. Since last year a very dear friend of the family passed away, Trung, who had twice been to speak with the Dalai Lama in private audience, he followed the Buddhist Faith with great reverence. In his honor, we did a Buddhist Food Blessing over our Dumb Supper --both in his honor-- and the pink tree was also dedicated to him since he was also a proud member of the Gay Pride Community.

This year, we have much more to celebrate and be happy about. New friends, new additions to the family, new relationships, etc...

So this year we went out and got a real pine (we'll plant it in the yard later on.) We'll be decorating it with garlands, possibly popcorn strings, ornaments, lights, and little dangling skeletons --just to be different! We always celebrate every Yule together as a family, with Coven and friends alike. We hold sabbat and then break fast for Yule Feast that has been cooking all day long. We laugh and chat, goof off and have a good time well into the night. This year we may do Karaoke, I'm writing down some Pagan-oriented Yule songs, perhaps I'll get a group together brave enough (or filled with enough egg nog) to sing achapella. xD We also have a Yule Gift Exchange. We have homemade incense, bath and body products also homemade, jewelry and other hand-crafted gifts to give to eachother.

So what are some of your traditions? How do you celebrate Yule? Christmas? St. Nicholas Day? I invite all of you, be you Pagan or Christian, Catholic or Jewish, Muslim or Buddhist, to share what your traditions are for this time of year!

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Come, Yule! We Welcome You!

Yule 2010

Yule has never been a very happy time for me, not since the early 90s when I still knew what it was to have a sense of family and belonging. Ever since my family split apart and chose their stands, I always felt lost and out of place.

This year as I was sitting in the car on the way to Marietta for a Gift Sale party a friend hosted, it began to snow. Not exactly common place in Georgia. As it snowed, a song came on the radio, "Happy Christmas (The War Is Over)" by John Lennon. I began to think about Yules-past and all the trials and tribulations the Goddess has sent my way over the years. The things I had to do in order to work my way up to this point. I took a good look around at what I have done, all that I have accomplished...and the friends I have made.

I realized that I have never been happier in all my years. I found both friends and family with my Coven, and I couldn't help but smile as my Godson experienced his first snow. Or smile in deep appreciation of a mother's love for her son when my Godson looked up at Santa Clause for the first time, pat his hand thrice, and smiled at him. My friend could not hold the tears from her eyes as she watched her son smile at Santa. I found friends in the Pagan Community and they reminded me of that during the Gift Sale when my friend opened her home up to me and members of my Coven representing our business (jewelry, bath & body products.)

So this morning as I was settling down to bed, I stared out the sliding glass doors to the small lake behind our house, and the scene the Goddess presented to my eyes of a half-frozen shoreline with waved water beyond that, I thought of a poem. It's the first I've written in a long time, and I decided to share it with everyone who reads these blogs.



Yuletide Cheer 2010


'Tis the season to be jolly,
As we praise the Oak and Holly,
Fires burning in the candles,
Stockings hanging from our mantles.

Yule log in the fireplace blazing,
Memories of the Yules-past phasing,
In and out of memory go,
As we're making some hot cocoa.

Sacred Tree standing tall and bright,
Help us make the season right.
White for heritage, red for blood,
Tied to the tree with sleeping buds.

Outside the house the Covens sing,
Praises to Oak and Holly King!
Fresh white powder litters the ground,
While sacred circle gathers 'round.

Hailing the Watch Towers of the yore,
Just as we did Yule sabbats before,
Welcoming all Yultide spirits within,
The circle is cast--we can begin!

Dancing and singing the fire 'round,
Drummers drumming to the sound,
Footprints in the fallen snow,
Winged images on the ground below.

Chanting praises we jump and shout,
Throwing all negativity out!
We dance and sing until the 'morn,
As we witness the Sun God is reborn.

Walking through the portal North,
Mistletoe hanging from the door,
We gather 'round the table East,
To sit and celebrate a bountiful feast.

Settling 'round the fire South,
We snuggle warm to think about,
All the reasons to forgive,
And all the gifts that we would give.

Finally migrating off to West,
We trudge wearily off to rest.
Hoping with the coming morn'
We get to witness the Sun God reborn.

Never forget not to fear,
The changes that come with each new year,
And all the love that we begot,
While Yultide cheer our hearts besot.

Blessed Yule! --2010

Written by Jonathon Lowe
a.k.a: Sacred Little Flame.
http://www.facebook.com/jonathonslowe
MysticPhoenixTears@hotmail.com

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Entry 002 -- The Pagan Community Bands Together Once Again!

Recently my coven and I have been getting to know Taryn Anu, owner and creator of Twitchy Tidbits (http://www.twitchytidbits.com) better over the past two months. She even ordered from our shop, MyDragonfly Rose Gifts (http://www.facebook.com/mydragonfly.rose.gifts) and was thus far pleased with her purchase! We also delivered some complementary sample bath and body products (soaps, lotion, and bath salts.)

In getting to know Taryn we have come to realize her passion for educating children, something that we all probably share in common.

The latest news is that Taryn is starting a pagan-oriented youth group called Sun & Moon Youth Group for kids ages 2-18. (http://sunandmoonyouth.blogspot.com/) It is a wonderful idea and some of the members of the Pagan Community are banding together to help make this wonderful youth group possible!

"At Sun & Moon we want to enrich children's spiritual lives while providing them with the tools they will need to make their own choices in their spiritual life and growth." -Taryn.

The youth group is affordable! Tuition covers the cost of transportation and material provided to your child. It also covers any instructional material that may be used in the class (i.e. books, videos, music).

Rates are as Follows:
Spiral Tots (2's & 3's) $10 per class
or
$35 full-term payment 30% discount!

Circle Children (PreK-Grade 6) $5 per class
or
$17.50 full-term payment 30% discount!

Lords and Ladies (Teens & Tweens)
FREE
Donations for time are appreciated.

Also, don't forget about the Pagan Pathways Festival this month! Contact me at mysticphoenixtears@hotmail.com or http://www.facebook.com/jonathonslowe for more information! June 26, 2010 @ Red Top Mountain State Park, Cartersville, GA. Group Shelter #2.

I'll post a separate entry all about the Festival soon! PS. We're still looking for volunteers, so if you're looking to volunteer to work a shift at the festival, let me know ASAP! Volunteers get in free but must work their full shift.

Friday, May 21, 2010

Entry 001 --The New Life

5.21.2010

I just got back home from my girlfriend's graduation ceremony. She lives about an hour from me. She's finally finished with grade school and is ready to move on to college. I graduated March 18th, 2010 however I walk to get my diploma next Friday, May 28th.

Tonight at the ceremony, during the school's Alma Matter when everyone pointed their right index finger up in the air, I noticed in the crowd one of the family members of the Seniors, who had a tattoo of a pentacle on his right hand, haha. He was open and proud!

Ok, so you're probably wondering why the title of my first blog is "The New Life." I came out of the "broom closet" to my family several years ago, and have been a practicing and studying Witch and Wiccan for 10 years this past Beltane (May 1st.) Growing up I always had to struggle through life to get to where I wanted to go....fought my parents all throughout school in order to graduate and successfully made it as the first member of my family to ever graduate with a High School Diploma! I went through the normal teasing some high schoolers go through, with the added rocks thrown and boots kicking from people finding out I'm pagan. I have always been out and proud about who I am. I wasn't always quite so loud about it as I was a very shy person, but I'm much more loud now! --As some of you in the Pagan Community may know!

I recently moved away from all of my birth family, and moved in with my spiritual family --my coven. My girlfriend and I are both members of the same coven. They were there for me during a bad time for me, when my mother was diagnosed with lung cancer and my grandmother was slowly and painfully dying from double-pneumonia with COP'D and Emphazima. Don't worry, my grandmother is now alive and kicking...for the most part. She's bedridden now and stuck in a nursing home permanently but I visit her more frequently these days. My mother caught the cancer in time to have it removed--this time--but she has a mass on her other lung and we're not sure what it is so we're still on guard.

Since moving, however, I have been accepted into college at Le Cordon Bleu Culinary Art Institute of Atlanta, I'm working on my driver's license, I'm helping my friend Laurie with her business MyDragonfly Rose Gifts --I'll touch more on that later on-- and I have been getting more and more active in the Pagan Community.

I joined a group known as NGS (North Georgia Solitaries) a while back and have thoroughly enjoyed conversing with them, and sharing sabbats with them. To-date, I have volunteered to work at the Pagan Pathways Festival in order to raise funds for the Pagan Assistance Fund, helping Pagan families in crisis. If you'd like to find out more about this, please visit the web site for the Festival at http://paganpathwaysfestival.eventbrite.com/ we are still accepting volunteers, so hurry! Volunteers get in free! (Except for the parking fee since the festival is in a state park, we have no control over that, but it's only $5.00)

Mydragonfly Rose Gifts (advertised by the wonderful Taryn Anu at www.twitchytidbits.com on her Podcast) is a small business selling hand-made one-of-a-kind semi-precious jewelry, as well as hand-made all-natural Face, Bath & Body products! Check us out at www.facebook.com/mydragonfly.rose.gifts ! You can check out our 2010 lineup for jewelry (more soon to come!) as well as samples of our Face, Bath & Body products.

For custom orders, you can email Laurie Bates (Owner) at lalalauralie@msn.com , Me (Jonathon Lowe) at MysticPhoenixTears@hotmail.com , the business email at MyDragonfly_Rose@msn.com , you can leave orders on our facebook via messages at www.facebook.com/mydragonfly.rose.gifts , or you can call us at 706-629-8155 and ask for Laurie Bates or Jonathon Lowe, but please PLEASE do not leave messages on the machine, there are teenage children in the house who are terrible at delivering messages!

Thank you for reading this blog --if you're still reading, I give you props! It wasn't the most exciting blog, but I promise things will get much more interesting as I start delving deeper into the goings-on of the Pagan Community.

Please check out Taryn Anu's pagan podcast Twitchy Tidbits and follow her blog at www.twitchytidbits.com , links to her podcast can be found on her blog, and she's now on Twitter! Follow her there to get constant updates on Twitchy Tidbits and goings-on in the pagan community from her end, as well as interviews, shop reviews, and wonderful segments on Pagan Parenting and so much more!

Brightest Blessings everyone, until next entry,

Jonathon Lowe -- "Sacred Little Flame"

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